The Weight I Carry

Ask me what’s the weight I carry

It’s the half ton school bag underneath I lie bury

The endless syllabus and inhuman finish line

Sky high expectations and I think “parents” –are they mine??

Ask me what’s the weight I carry

Colleges, admissions, Ragging and oh yes, Puberty !

Should I just freak out this life or take it seriously

I’m torn, I’m confused, and they say “think judiciously”

Ask me what’s the weight I carry

No. of degrees, certificates, security, future worry

Cold hands, trembling knees, shivering voice

Trust, faith, promise, integrity, or just being nice

Ask me what’s the weight I carry

New family, new expectations, all I did was marry !

Hurricane emotions, Debris of dreams, yet smiling & bonding life

Yes I was a Bride but now, I am a Wife

Ask me what’s the weight I carry

The seed of future grows in me and I’m weary

My weight on my feet and tied onto my waist

I shall be a mother for life and now I can’t wait

Ask me what’s the weight I carry

Life, kids, job, family, I gave it all and now I’m dreary

My little one said “Life is this, Life is that, what do You understand?”

I nurtured him in my arms; I look so small now and taller does he stand  !

Ask me what’s the weight I carry

Wrinkles, sleepless nights, doctor visits, I worry

I’m Retired , wondering into space I lay

I’m getting ready, my grandchildren are on their way

I carried weight on my shoulders and walked a mile

The line on my forehead seldom got affected by my smile

Straining longing eyes, dragging heavy feet, I shouldn’t be late

In my heart too I carried an unknown weight

Holding her tiny finger in mine, I’m overjoyed,

To whom the weight had belonged, now I realized

I think its long due that I stop, connect and engulf

To a person I have lost touch with --- Myself !